More…. i just want more….

Me: God what must i do to desire more

God: you must love me like a fat kid love cake

Me: what are you trying to tell me!?!?!

God: think about it……

Me: ok……. (few minutes  pass) so you want me to get fat in your love  O_o

god: keep thinking……

Me:… i give up

god: you desire a piece of me a large piece but still a piece to get your fill to get a taste, a fat kid desires the whole…. thing….  fullness….

he want me to have my cake and eat it too….

god loves a hungry heart that yearn for more of him

Ive got joy :)

Wow… its been a while….I think that one of the fruits that has been thriving in my heart is joy lately. By no means has life been easier or I feel more secure in my future. Its actually gotten more and more complicated and leaving me to question things that I thought that I have discerned already. I’m still trying to get over my pride and thinking of how secure I was knowing god’s plan for my life. He has been teaching me over the weeks that I don’t follow a plan to be faithful, I follow Christ and Christ alone. That every step I take I depend on jesus like he was to the father.

Jesus gave them this answer: “I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does. (John 5:19)

Even though my heart breaks, I still I find myself smiling more and more. With want he wants me to do I feel more and more unqualified as I think about it. I know that its not about want I feel but about obedience.